Yearning

Al Matin, Holy Magic Mother Fire – المتين

المتين – The Eternal, 54th name

“If they turn away, then know that Allah is your Befriender – a Transcendent Patron, a Transcendent Helper!” ~ Holy Quran, 8:40

Days pass, I pray and I awake slowly from this strange numb dream. While diving to the bottoms of the bottomless seas to recover Inji, the Pearl, I see demons, jinns, confusion, shapeshifters, screams within screams, hardened faces.Continue reading

Certain Feminists, Islam and the Far-Right

“The Head Scarf is the Flag of the Islamic Crusade.” ~ Alice Schwarzer

The other day I read an article in the New York Times about Alice Schwarzer, a prominent German feminist, known since the 1970s for her acitivties. The New York Times even called her “pioneering”. Pioneering? Alice Schwarzer was very much present during my childhood in Germany. She represents my mother’s generation – she appeared on various media and is still a major figure in German feminism. Continue reading

Peonie in Arabesque by Roya Azal

From Radical Atom, to Dancing Atom

“O God of all gods, come to the aid of the people of Light, give the victory to the people of Light, and guide the light unto the Light!” ~ Shihābuddīn Yaḥyā Sohravardī (a.s)

After a short illness Armin Medosch, an Austrian net artist and activist has died on the 23rd of February 2017. I first met Armin in Munich and later I met him again in London, when I myself was working in media and the arts and went through all the madness and light-heartedness that was the early digital age. In Germany he was a collegue of mine at the Munich media lab and worked as editor at the German online magazin telepolis, the first of it’s kind, at an age when Online Magazins were entirely unheard of (the mid to late 90s).Continue reading

Forest with Arabeske

Learning from Khidr and Trees – My Life in the Forests

"You think you are a small entity, but within you is enfolded the entire Universe" - Ali ibn Talib (as)

"It is God who splits open the seed and the fruit stone. He brings out the living from the dead, and the dead from the living." ~ Quran, Surat 6:100

One of the great blessings in my life are my encounters with Al-Khidr, the green spirit (Khiḍr resembles the word “green” in Arabic, though others give other etymologies for the name). One afternoon in England - in a park with a small forest - I encounterd a bright green light (that's Clorophyl) in the moss and ever since I follow this light and began a conversation with trees and everything that grows. With time I learned more about the vast interconnected natural networks that surround us and I began to venture deeper into communicating and seeking to learn from them.

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Bird Praising God

Re-Framing Psychosis and the Psychotic Muslim

“So the first step in working with the psychotic individual is to get to know the person’s psychosis – begin to understand the person’s reifications. There is ALWAYS method to the madness.”

Our mental health “issues” deserve to be treated with respect and dignity – our issues relate to our untold stories, our pain our persecution and our ancestral and present-day experiences. There is no dignity in “tricking” those who got stories to tell. I am hence not supporting to “trick” the Jinn, as Jinns are in my book, the Quran and some other books too, sacred story tellers about our sadness, madness, condemption and redemption. Almost all mental ailments require engagement, not supression. And last but not least: Psychiatric medication can be extremely debilitating and can damage our brain, our metabolism, our natural bio-energy flow and subtle bodies.

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Spherical Bird

About Death and our Minds

These deaths of dear friends marked the end of the last year for me and before I could even fully comprehend what had happened, many political events took place that grabbed my attention.

Two friends have died just before the end of last year whose friendship meant much to me. May their souls rest in peace.

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Street Art

Protection from Mental Abuse and Manipulation

“I seek refuge in the Lord of daybreak. From the evil of that which He created. And from the evil of darkness when it settles. And from the evil of the blowers in knots. And from the evil of an envier when he envies.” ~ Surat Al-Falaq

“I wanted to go and study the religion … hoping that Allah is gonna cure me one day from the evil inside that I used to believe. But the doctors are saying it’s not evil — it’s mental illness.” ~ Sami Osmakac

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Sacred Tree Allah

Islam and Psychosis, Part 1: The Psychiatric Dystopia

“I once read about a Muslim man who was locked up in a Psychiatric hospital by his family. He begged a young Psychiatrist for help and repeated the Fatihah over and over again. What really got to me was the response of the Psychiatrist. He brushed the man off and could not see how that the man was calling for spiritual help. The most disturbing part for me was that the Psychiatrist himself was a Muslim.”

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